Kent vs Me

I'm so sorry for those who read my previous blog and tell me not to smoke. Seriously thanks for all of your care and I wanna tell all of you, I'm not anymore! Its just trying out and believe it or not, I wanna blame it on depression from everything around me here. Sometimes, I do really wish that I could fly back to my very home stay in my very home and being lazy as usual. But come to think over it, I CAN'T JUST WASTE MY LIFE LIKE THIS?! So, I'll stand up now, looking ahead and do the things that I am responsible for. I was shocked about the chat last night, and I'm filled with guilt on my both ex girlfriend's for what I've done to them. I've changed them, as I initially thought to. But I just end up dumping them letting them alone, covered in misery and tears. I'm just another jerk anyway, so now, I will tell myself and I will hold to this, I won't get into another relationship anymore, cause I found it I'm just selfish for people's care but I'll end up doing nothing for them. Kent don't deserve this care, so I'll stop myself from hurting anyone, anymore. I can't move on from my past relationships?? Yes and No, because I'm in a so confused state now where I can't tell the answer. What I know is, I can confirm! That the very angel that gonna care me will eventually fall and become another victim of Kent. So I'm gonna stop this, stop luring them to the trap.