You and I Both - Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
all things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in the lines

And the bright lights turn tonight
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dreamed of
others only read of..
the love.. the love that i love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

cause you and I both, loved
what you and I, spoke of.
and others just read of.
and if you could see me now.
oh love love.
you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well than I'm almost finally out of
well I'm almost finally finally.
oh i am free

and it's okay if you had go away
oh just remember the telephones where they both work in m both ways
but if I never ever hear them ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you were saying

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now

28th May

Hmm, this is muy first time that I actually blogged using another person's laptop. This laptop is quite cool and easier to type compared to mine =P

Nah, I just feel like telling out that my exams is in hours away (can't really tell the time, where the clock itself is blocked by a note written 'DON'T LOOK' lol) and I'm just not in the mood to study anymore =D

Just that, yesterday I really had my best chat in my life, where I can actually freely speak out anything I can think of and the only the funny thing is, I found that we do have something in similar (but dun think the other way round) Just felt that I'm actually so fortunate to have such friend that I met here.

Kent, Not touching this laptop anymore.

Wooohooooo

Yes!! I just formatted my laptop(GREAT THANKS TO MOSES!!), backup media files in a new hard disk, registered iTunes (means that I'm not a pirate anymore!) and made some shopping!! Whew! This is fun but yet pain lol.. Anyway, I won't be enjoying anymore cause exams is coming!! I must start studying!! But now really feel like released everything away from my head already and its really give me a better condition for me to do things that I have to do.

Kent =)
p/s for those who got disappointed, please allow me to apologize for what I've done, and I promise that I will not touch it anymore.

Not in the mood

Sighs, just as stated in the title. Just not in the mood to update, furthermore I don't really think anyone will read it anymore, due to my stupidity.

Kent

Kent vs Me

I'm so sorry for those who read my previous blog and tell me not to smoke. Seriously thanks for all of your care and I wanna tell all of you, I'm not anymore! Its just trying out and believe it or not, I wanna blame it on depression from everything around me here. Sometimes, I do really wish that I could fly back to my very home stay in my very home and being lazy as usual. But come to think over it, I CAN'T JUST WASTE MY LIFE LIKE THIS?! So, I'll stand up now, looking ahead and do the things that I am responsible for. I was shocked about the chat last night, and I'm filled with guilt on my both ex girlfriend's for what I've done to them. I've changed them, as I initially thought to. But I just end up dumping them letting them alone, covered in misery and tears. I'm just another jerk anyway, so now, I will tell myself and I will hold to this, I won't get into another relationship anymore, cause I found it I'm just selfish for people's care but I'll end up doing nothing for them. Kent don't deserve this care, so I'll stop myself from hurting anyone, anymore. I can't move on from my past relationships?? Yes and No, because I'm in a so confused state now where I can't tell the answer. What I know is, I can confirm! That the very angel that gonna care me will eventually fall and become another victim of Kent. So I'm gonna stop this, stop luring them to the trap.

Lost because trying to avoid

Hmm, these few days is already been real though to me. I just can't stop it. Is there anyone willingly tell me anyway, not just to make me smile, but makes me feel better. I can't stop dreaming, and hoping for things. I'm feeling empty. Don't compare to most of you, but I just feel this. Listening to loud songs, looking sad all the time, smoking and eating tonnes of strepsils. This is what I'm doing all the time. Moses, just tell me that this is the most emo phrase that he ever heard, but what can I do?? I need to stand up!! I need to wake up!! I need to forget!! I need a new life!!
Face reality and look ahead. Stop destroying myself and get myself clear, all the time!

Kent, looking towards reality.

Feeling of being annoyed...

Now I can really understand as the person who annoy anyone else.. I used to say that someone always annoy me or bugging me around until I can really fed up... I can't stop reflecting myself to my past, really.. I can't think of anyway, anymore to comfort myself and telling myself, 'It's alright!' or 'Daijobu!' Sighs, I really hope someone can tell me, truthfully. Sorry for those who I used to claim that they are annoying, and sorry for being annoying!!

Kent, signing off and stops blog from sometime.

Kent's vision

Hmm first of all, I'm not mentioning about the literally vision but the vision I can see in my mind. Hmm basically, what I can see is just plain white, nothing, not even a single colour in it. Where is the colour where I used to see?? Is there anything else that i can see?? Basically I think most of my readers now really don't understand what I'm trying to say. These few days I'm so indulge into metaphor-ing especially when comes to things that recently happened to me.

Signing off, and will get a good rest in my mind,
Kent

Just feel like blogging

Its almost 10pm here and I'm still sitting in one of the seats in the library. Sighs, anyone thinks that I'm a geek?? Nah!! I'm loitering around here since I don't feel like going home and since my friends need my help in their lab experiment report that I just finished earlier (because I spent my whole last week for it) but all my friend finishing everything in an hour or two. LOL Basically, I'm a dumb ass that aimed for the perfect only. But I'm pushing other subjects aside. I've done 15 assignments out 19 of this trimester already. Most of it already graded but I don't really get a good score which can leads me to get HD for this trimester. Another sighs for today. But, forget about getting HD already, I'll still get my ass to university eventually, just least 2 years, without failing any units. Hmm I just heard from some of my friends in Part2 Diploma(equivalent to first year uni), their lecturer said that its ok to fail a unit or two in that level, because its too intense course compared to the proper first year student is taking.

Kent,
Prepared to face failure in life. (Not all types though)

Time to ask myself

Kent, who are you actually? What can you actually can do in your life? When the hell you can stop procrastinate and do the things that are really meant for you to do? When are you going to decide to stop doing things that annoys people? Why are you so dumb? Why are you asking yourself questions?

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

Funny, wacky song by Taylor Swift.

Im ok =)

Im so so sorry for all those 'emo' post that i wrote cause i really having a bad time over here confused yet trying to get tough!! I'm ok now!! Officially announce!!
Hmm from now on, I'll just do my own stuff, and only do anything as long as anyone wished. AND never do anything without purpose..


Kent

Paranoia

Paranoia is a thought process categorized by excessive anxiety or fear often to the point of irrationality and delusion. Thinking positively and face the problem is an alternative way to solve paranoia problems. (Source: Wikipedia.org)

But in Kent's view, paranoia is just an optimistic view on something and sort of like the last impossible hope when a person is in grief. To solve it, get over it!

Btw everything above is just bullsh!t that I got no idea why its in my head now.

Kent

Stay Strong!!!

Hmm, I guess most of the reader of this blog will know who I'm mentioning here. Even for those who I just met in Australia, I told most of my friend about this best bro I'm having while I was in Malaysia. I just arrived home from my friend's house to discuss about assignments, and I just checked my best bro's blog. His condition is getting worst again. Sighs, why the fcuk the world wanna pledged him into this pain and misery!!!!
SERIOUSLY speaking, I really wished to fly all the way back now, pushing anything I'm having now aside and wanna have a talk with him, cause I know that I got a lot of things to tell him. And out of sudden, I think over all my foolishness that I've done and he had been pulling me out of the trouble numerously. He's one of my best buddy. And I really hoped that he's condition will only be better but not worst.
David, Stay Strong! I'm sure nobody is happy to see or hear that you are in hospital. So, get well soon!!

Plain White T's - 1,2,3,4

Haha a sweet song that I caught in youtube.

Things that in my mind, and my heart.

My mind is keep telling me that, 'Its your new life!!! Australia!! Breath in a better way, do better things, and stop procrastinating!'

To be honest, I got no idea why I typed all this out. Its just what I feel to tell. I just feel to tell something out but at the same time I got no idea where to start with. I guess I'll follow what my mind told me to do. I thought of going private but I guess I'll delete this post after this midnight.

Opps, sorry for the late deletion. Its better now, seriously..

Pain with =) in my face.