21st of September

Why bothered to make maple night where you promised to talk to him? Go enjoy yourself and talk to him the whole night la. I don’t want to be in the situation where I have to keep quiet at the side, playing maple, whilst you are happily chatting right beside me. I don’t want to be in that awkward situation. I just want to be alone.

Leave me alone.

16th of September

Sentences keep on popping up in my mind for the past few seconds. I had come to a point where I don’t feel my life plays a role anymore. An advice told by Mr. Eugene Quah, says that ‘as an adult, we will face limitless amount of people, whether its friends, subordinates or superior. The key thing to ensure your life is valuable and meaningful is to keep your level of confidence up while ensuring they trust whatever you are doing.’ I am different; I acted the other way round. I put myself at the lowest possible position among everything. Now I’m lost. My mind now starts thinking about conspiracies that despises people like me. I keep on feel that I am suiciding with a knife stabbed right to my heart. Days and night, the imagination is so rich where I even know how I’m going to react and feel. What happen if this imagination turns real? Seriously, I’m hoping that there is an ‘offline meeting’ like in the anime ‘NHK ni youkoso’. That would be the best resolution for me.
Bye.